Now I’m sitting in the middle of no where, I guess I just need more time for myself. I love the peace here, even thought there are cars speeding off not very near here which distracted the peace. But its nature, nature that can never be stop. Not far from here I see playground, it’s full of joy though there is no kids playing around. How I which I was 5 years old, where I know nothing about life and all I care about is food, toys and LOVE, I just need to cry if I’m not happy with anything and there comes my attention. Isn’t it great to be a kid? Run around, sweets, birthday present, hugs from mum and dad.

I think I need a break for myself, get away from problem, I over-reacting I guess, I’m crying for no reason, I wonder myself, what wrong with me? Why am I torturing myself so badly? I guess I can’t hold things much longer in me I’m breaking down. I’m not myself, I as quiet, I didn’t talk. I went off after test, I can’t concentrate a single thing, worst my test, I can’t do, my brain not working, my brain just stop and my heart start aching. Am I like this because I didn’t sleep last night? Does it have side effect? Causing me to be emotional unstable? Or maybe it is just simply depression? I love the breeze here it cool me down.

Maybe I think too much like love, friendship, happiness and bla bla. Well, I should give a great thank and appreciation to Adilah (cine) I guess she really knows how to cheer me up. THANKS A LOT. And to Rachel, she comes down just to meet me, to see how I’m doing. I LOVE YOU GUYS…

I think I need to try to control my emotion, I might go insane on day if this carries on. You right Adilah I guess should have just banged myself at a wall and laugh out loud all the worries. I just want to be myself again, no worries, happy-go-lucky, live life to the fullest, LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE SAD!!! I’m working on it, trying my best to work hard and double hard. Now table turn, no more I envy her or whoever but they should be envy me. That’s bad I know, but that’s my motivation. I’m going to start fresh with all my buddies.

Reflection is good way of relaxing, with no phone ringing, with no msning popping out, just the breeze and me! I need ice cream now; I’m running out of happiness.

To conclude actually, I didn’t actually know why in crying, I guess it is too much that it burst out this way.




Guess what when I’m on my way home, I was angry to myself. I can’t control my feeling. I don’t even know where the anger comes from. I feel pissed off and I almost lost my life, nearly bang by a car. Could you believe that? I almost lose control of myself. .I’m just scare, scare that this uncontrollably emotions will drive me crazy one day. :’(

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