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♥♥ DiLah LaLa ♥♥ :)
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Thursday, September 27, 2007
fear ended with a smile
i wake up with a heavy heart, scare and afraid of getting hurt. I’m confuse, I did not if I should go and break fast with them (hisyam, afi, radi, amin, mo, nazrin, shikin, Adilah, syu and nadiah). I wasn’t sure If I’m supposed to go or not. Worst they (hisyam, afi…..) to ask randy along, but im just to afraid to ask him, scare that we will think im bias towards the other group of the guys because at the same time randy, Rachel and rebeka went out and they ask me along too. Im just too scare to ask him along, because the majority they is malay, what fear me the most that he will feel outcast and show his att again, i just hate when that happen. i just hate quarreling with him. i just wanne be happi being his friend like before. ****just hope things will be a same again**** it didn't hurt me as much as i thot when i went out with them to break fast becox i thot seeing her will just make me think of the past, but it didnt, instead i enjoy myself. while hisyam sitting at the end of the table keep pestering me to tok to adilah, i wanted to but i just have no idea wat to tok about. i went home after we finish eat which i wish i could stay longer with them but im just too tire to stay. when its time go hm, i gather enough courage to actually shake her hands! (good job for me!)heheh dis morning i receive the most shocking sms from adilah, went i least expected that she gonna sms me. we did tok abit, and i hope everytink went well after dis (we hope). my fear ended with a smile! thanks everyone that help to make it happen!!!! Labels: fear ended with a smile |